Special
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Forgive me this post will be a bit personal…
The picture for {special} was taken during the last few minutes I would be with both my boys for a long time…
They have gone off and left me for the summer and they have gone in opposite directions…
I’m sad because most likely we will not be together again here at home until Thanksgiving…
They boys won’t be together until September…
Jeff and I plan on visiting each of them as much as possible this summer but life has definitely changed for me…
And I can’t say I’m happy about it…
I have known the day they would both be gone was fast approaching and I found myself realizing just how {special} it was to all be together under the same roof…
Of course there is another way the word {special} describes my children… 🙂
I realize that I will always be their mom…
I realize that this is what is supposed to happen…
I am extremely proud of both of them…
But a significant chapter of my life has closed and I’m shocked it’s over…
I also realize it will make the times we are together as a family all the more {special}…
A Habit
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I truly have a {habit} of taking pictures…
What that means is that I am rarely in a situation – especially if it is a new to me situation – where I am not looking at the view, situation, etc. with a photographers eye…
Of course it also means I am often purposefully out with my camera looking for a shot…
Sometimes that is a problem…
Sometimes I need to relax and just soak it all in and not worry about “capturing” the moment, scene, experience…
Sometimes I want to just show up and not be the photographer…
Not at all because I don’t love photography!
But there is A LOT of pressure when you are taking pictures for other people…
Especially when it is a significant event and all I want in the world if for people to be thrilled with every picture they receive…
So sometimes I just need a release from that pressure…
But then I find myself without my camera and I can’t take a picture and that drives me crazy!
Then there are those rare times when everything lines up…
When I’m at the right place at the right time with the right equipment…
And this just feeds my {habit)…
I think it is a good {habit} but as with all {habits} I need to strike a balance…
Unless we are talking about my chocolate habit…
No balance there – I’m all in!
-S
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